Why isn’t your mind clear? Let us start by providing a simple definition for your mind: the essential element or component allowing you to function within and navigate through any given environment that you find yourself. Your ability to function or navigate these various environments decreases as the clarity of your mind decreases.
What then leads to a decrease in clarity, which then often only compounds the difficulty, leading to lowered levels of fulfillment, at times even despair? This question is highly complex, with significant emphasis laid on the specific individual who is dealing with such a loss, however, there may be general answers that can be extended to individual cases.
To ascertain general answers requires the development of general questions, and to help guide this process some important general topics: Trauma, Emotion and Desire. While these issues are highly complex ideas, with associated struggles one has in experiencing them, it is possible that they need not be overly complex, or even complicated.
It is a sign of complete or partial misunderstanding and misidentification that leads a general concept or idea to either of these ends. Regardless of whether the idea or concept is simple or complex it may be fraught with complications due to some element or aspect of it remaining unexplored or completely missing from its definition or utilization.
Why isn’t your mind clear? Emotions need expression, but they also require discernment and a level of control over them leads to confidence in the expression of them. Not all emotions manifest for the person experiencing them in a clear and simple way. Blocked emotions can lead to a lack of clarity in thinking and behavior.
Identifying and distinguishing between a feeling/sensation and a feeling/emotion is a useful technique for better understanding the emotional experience. If you can distinguish between a feeling and an emotion then you have a better chance of controlling the emotion without blocking it which can lead to depression, resentment, and misplaced anger.
Emotion is connected to desire. A person experiencing happiness, sadness or any emotion is going to be desiring something to continue or to end. All "positive" emotions want to be extended, while all "negative" emotions want to be eliminated. The complexity of extending or ending an emotion consciously requires one to understand their desire.
Unprocessed, unacknowledged or unconscious trauma acts as a force preventing one from controlling their emotions, a sign of blockage. Trauma involves the loss of what was desired. Adults/caregivers are supposed to have the skills that lead to the processing of situations/events that are traumatic, nullifying their impact.
Concepts/ideas and adults/caregivers are supposed to help make sense of problems and trauma. Your concepts and caregivers fell short of this ideal. It is now your job to consciously overcome and make sense of the important ones.